the more twangy the better!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I just LOVE country music. I'm sorry, but I do! I suppose it started with my parentals! They've ruined me, or maybe not ruined, but it's all their fault. They played country music all the time, well I should say they play country music all the time. I know a lot of people grew up with oldies and soft rock, but I grew up with old country and ksop!
I didn't always love Patsy Cline and Don Williams, but when it came around to when I was purchasing my own cd's I bought a cd of each of them. And I often reminisce of long car rides with the Bar J Boys playing on tape. We all had the words to every song memorized, even the yodeling part.
I don't know what it is about Country music and mornings, but they go together like pb&j. Seriously! I get so happy listening to country music in the morning. I have 3 pandora stations that play country, and 2 presets in my car that play it also. It makes my heart glad to listen to it. I love it, I feel like there is substance to it.

I think I especially love Bluegrass-ish country music. Its so twangy and nice! I love songs about little country towns and growin up in the sticks. I don't feel like I grew up too far out there, but I know what it's like to live in the country, and to have neighbors who drive tractors for a living. I lOVE it!
I discovered a new duo this week! a husband and wife, :) they're too cute! the husband always wears overalls and the wife wears snap up country shirts tucked into her highrise jeans. :) it makes me so happy to watch them. Joey and Rory are their names. I love their song "play the song" and "cheater cheater"! :) he he he!

Anyways, I know, I'm just rambling on and on about country music, but I can't help it. I love it! :) it makes me want to drink a beer, make love to my husband, have a bunch of kids and live out in the sticks. :) Music people, its moving!

PS. the sun is out right now. :) IT"S BEAUTIFUL! YAY! Praise God for letting the sun come out!

sweet salvation

Thursday, November 5, 2009

lists lists lists. I love lists. I am good at lists. I can make a list, do the things, check it off. Done! Accomplished! SUCCESS! I am awesome! right?

I love making grocery lists, chore lists, lists of prayers, lists of food, friends, anything! Write a list, it'll get done! I even make lists of doing good.

__ Be nice to others
__ Pray
__ Go to Church
__ Follow Jesus
__ Do the right things
__ Volunteer
__ Serve others
__ ETC.....

What is this list for? This is the list that a lot of people live by. Not exactly this list, I didn't copy it from some guide book to life... it's the list of what we should do. right? It's like how to get to heaven 101.... these are the things to do. This is how I have lived so often. In the Mormon church, and out of it.

What a flawed person I am.

What a flawed belief this is.

The whole point of Jesus dying is because I can't do this list. It doesn't matter where I go, what I do, the things I check off will never get me into heaven. I'm not perfect. I will not be perfect in this life.

Brian has been writing a paper that has harshly reminded me of the path to perfection which I've tried so hard to give up. It's like a drug. I understand why people think this way, I think this way!
Does that make it truth?
No.

Oh how my heart aches to scream it! STOP RUNNING! You cannot be perfect.
You don't Have to!

I don't have to.
Oh sweet salvation, how have you won my heart, and yet it keeps on straying.
Please Sweet Salvation, hang on to my heart, because I can not, but you can. and you do.
It is you who sought me. You who pulled me close. You who holds me dear.
And it's despite my failure I fear.

I love you Sweet Salvation; Jesus! my God!